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I SAY TO MYSELF:

Yes, it IS possible to be self-emplyed in the field of Yoga & Personal growth AND become a Mom.

Yes, you CAN be it all.

Yes, you DESERVE it all.

Yes, birth is natural & peaceful 😌.

Yes, you are made for this, you body is made for this.

Yes, you can buy a House in Portugal in an area that is known for Villas & "rich people" because Money is Love.

Yes, you can be a strong partner for your husband AND hold your own Energy high.

Yes, Universe always provides for you. Always.

If you can grow a beautiful human in your body, all miracles in this Universe are possible at any time ✨

I allow everything i am dreaming of, to flow easily into my Life

Everything is divine timing.

So be it.

🙏🏻

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Let me know which one resonates most with you and feel free to add 💖

📷@smileisthekeyphotography
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THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU

In those last months, acctually this entire year 2022, my life has been so ALIVE 🎢🙃❤️🔥🧘♀️

I sometimes ask myself how much inner & outer change all at the same time is healthy. For me.

What made it possible to navigate through the layers of human experience with grace, serenity and faith is: MY PRACTISE.

To me that means:

> Finding my breath
> Moving my Body
> Calming my mind
> Finding my breath again
> Facing my fears
> Talking to my inner controller
> Finding silence
> Me time
> Raw honestly towards my reactions
> Finding my breath again
> Going onto my mat, especially when I really don't feel like it. And Just sit with ME. With ALL OF ME and with ALL OF THIS LIFE. And find my breath.

Do your practise and all is coming.

It's true 🙏🏻

Without Yoga, it's Philosophy of self and Personal expansion, i never (never!) would have this loving & compassionate marriage - still after 11 years, moved to a different country, bought a House, emotionally & mentally survived a miscarriage, taught 2 Teacher Trainings, run my own Retreats & classes & being of service, built my own Soul-Business and be able to live from it, believed in myself at that level, Loved myself so so much, met all these amazing humans in my Life, by far my Heart wouldn't be as Open as it is, and I would probably still think, that I am my thoughts, or my Feelings, or my Body.

So thank you thank you thank you, yogic path, all it's teachings & practises, ancient rishis & gurus, all to my teachers 🙏🏻

It makes me cry knowing what Yoga does for me.
Every. Single. Day.

THANK YOU.

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My intention with this very special NEW YEAR RETREAT in Portugal ☀️ and: what it is all about 🙏🏻

You will get the Chance to:

✨ travel to the LIGHT within you

✨ and be able to EXPRESS this essence

✨ dive into different PRACTISES

✨ CONNECT to purest within you & others

✨ take a BREAK from (everyday) life

✨ NOURISH yourself on all Levels

✨ setting krystal clear INTENTIONS for the new year

✨ take this REST & CLARITY home with you

💖 travel to your OWN truth and tune in with the melody of your beautiful heart 💖

~

I'll be hosting this Retreat with the most amazing man i know, my husband and his ability to make everyone feel ever so saved & grounded. This is the place from where inner growth & personal expansion happens 🙌

~

- 6 DAYS | 28th Dec - 2nd Jan

- South Portugal at @monte_orada_portugal
> The most MAGICAL place we know in Europe so far 🤍

- From 960€ all incl.

- Only 1 private suite left

- Double, Dormroom & Nature Bungalows still available 🙃

- vegan & vegetarian soul food

~

Let us know if you feel the call

ALL INFO IN BIO & also take a look at the Highlight

🌺

With Love,
Jessy & Ben with Stevie 🐾
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When the heart opens and we trust life, we make you right people & decisions ~.

thank you thank you @bettina_storf you beautiful being of light 💖

For your love, beautiful heart, trust and heartfelt energy ~.

To be part of your Ecstatic Dance is a huge gift. That I was able to share the Cacao Spirit, the medicine of the heart with over 50 souls: indescribable ✨

Thank you for our friendship.
And I liiiiove our co-creations 🙌

Here's to more of the same ~

With love, your Jessy
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Your inner, energetic compass ~ today I'm a live guest of @lauramalinaseiler at Higher Self Home - her spiritual members area.

This month the focus topic is CHAKRA POWER ✨

In this workshop you will have the opportunity to feel your individual power centers through the so-called bija sounds (seed sounds of the respective chakras).

At the same time, I dive with you and the homies into the themes of each center from a personal development perspective and we explore what is lying dormant here in your subconscious.

It will be an exciting mix of impulse talk and knowing, practicing and feeling ~ and I am so looking forward to the energy of the beautiful souls of this special evening 🙏🏻💖

You can sign up in Laura's bio at ▶️ Higher Self Home

My heart is dancing. Looking forward to seeing you ❤️🔥

With love,
Jessy
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Hach it was so dreamy yesterday ~ dream Sunday halt 💖

Next & last YOGA BRUNCH will take place on 28.08. 🙌
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Let nature be your Teacher

🌳 What can you learn from a tree?
🌿 What do you remember, when looking at a leave?
🥾 What Happens with your thoughts whilst walking over rocks, roots and soil?

Allow yourself to immerse yourself into nautre more.

It's a symbiosis with your Essence ✨

#hiking 1TP4Forestbaden #pachamama #onelove
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Are visits to your home region or family reunions sometimes super exhausting and emotionally dissolving for you?
So-called #riggers are NOT the situations that upset you.

Triggers are events that catapult you back emotionally to a past moment in your life. Moments that were a traumatic experience for you.

Since these moments mostly originated with the caregivers/parents and in school & childhood, we find especially many such situations with these people and in these places.

⚠️ Allow these situations to become your LEARNING FIELDS.

Observe yourself.

Feel. Allow yourself to feel everything. They will seem very familiar, but what makes the difference is to really allow them.

And then make clear decisions:

🪷 How would I like to be?
🪷 How do I want to feel inside?
🪷 What can I do to be and stay in my center in the best possible way?

🌹How do I talk to myself when'it didn't work out?
🌹When's escalated? When I have fallen fully into my inner child and its hurts or traumas?

AND THEN:

🤍✨ KNOW WHO YOU ARE ✨🤍 NOW. TODAY.

Love Jessy
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I would love to shower you with all the love in my heart 💓 At the moment I feel such an abundance, so many ideas come to me - also for the coming year - and I just want to share this feeling with you.

This group is for you if you...

⋗ you want a source of inspiration
⋗ you are interested in your personal development
⋗ Jessy energy you want to feel
⋗ would like to get a taste of my work for free
⋗ are simply curious

I celebrate every single person in this group 🙏🏼

Thank you for your trust.

And thank you for walking the inner path.

For your love. For the love of the world.

Thank you Thank you

Link in the bio 😍 Tomorrow morning there's something fine again ~

LOVE.
Jessy
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I Love my Life I love my Life I love my Life
~
#vantour #digitalnomad #travelingyogi #traveldog #roomtour #thankfulness #peaceout #personalitydevelopment
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3 Things that helped me deal with a harrowing experience. May this also support you in challenging situations:

**Disclaimer**

Whether your spirituality & personality development is really integrated, you will only notice when something blatant happens outside, e.g. a pandemic, e.g. an illness, e.g. a separation, e.g. a severe loss.

So we can use these events for us 🙏🏻 therefore

1. 🫶 OCCURATE

∆ Do not try to be against the event. Accept it. SEE IT. Tell it, "Okay I perceive you, you are here."

2: 🥹 GIVE SPACE

∆ Give yourself TIME for your healing. Hit the stop button, cancel everything. Care for yourself as if you were your best friend. Rest, massage, healers, therapy, doctor, baths, sleep, you Name it. You come First.

3: ✨ DIVINITY

∆ Everything is DIVINE TIMING. Connect with something that is beyond your horizon. TRUST that this experience has a higher & good purpose that is FOR YOU.

I believe in this deeply.

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I can now say that I am deeply grateful for what it was with me recently. Even though it was most unpleasant & painful at first, I now recognize so much beauty in it 💖

What other point has helped you navigate through difficult situations in your life?

Feel free to share it with me & everyone else 🙏🏻

So much love goes out to you ~ my heart is so full today ❤️🔥😍🙃

Your Jessy
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When's just grabs you again and you write a post with joy & love and not, because of the all-going-in-the-same-rhithm.

If you use social media because you're loving it. You celebrate your community. And: because you know it's your duty to show off and to share your unique gifts with the world ❤️🔥.

#imadethis #imadeit #iamastar #algorithm #ausliebe
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Was bedeutet Selbstliebe?

What does self-love mean?

What does self-love mean?

how can you develop it? And what does self-love have to do with yoga?

Many wish for more self-love - but what is that actually? And how can you take more time for yourself despite a full calendar? Here I share with you my everyday tips for yoga exercises, meditations and affirmations on the topic of self-love. It is my absolute heart topic and flows into all projects of Inti Yoga. I even have my own Self Love Yoga Retreat Program developed. 

In this article you can expect:

  1.  Self love can be practiced
  2.  What does self-love mean?
  3.  Why do we find it so difficult?
  4.  How to start integrating self-love into your everyday life
  5.  Self-love tips for your everyday life
  6.  3 myths about self love
  7.  More affirmations for self love

Self love can be practiced

The most beautiful thing about self-love is that it can be a lifelong playground where we are allowed to follow our curiosity and get more and more in touch with ourselves.  

So self-love can be learned: you can practice self-love and over time you will notice that you become more and more attentive to your thoughts and actions. And that you will become more and more imaginative in expanding your self-love practice - this is a beautiful journey.  

What does self-love mean?

 

For me, there are three levels of self-love, which we will look at in more detail here:

Self-acceptance

I have the ability to recognize and accept myself - here and now - as I am. With all feelings, with my body as it is right now, with all my thoughts.

Through self-acceptance we create a basis of respect and peace within ourselves. Through this basis we find with time more satisfaction with our body, in our relationships and also a certain sovereignty can arise. Because the more you accept yourself, including all your inaccessibilities, the easier it is for you to accept others as they are.

 

Affirmation:

I recognize myself and like myself the way I am.

I am good enough.

Self-care

I can decide - in every moment - whether I act in the sense of my heart or against myself.

Self-care doesn't necessarily mean that we spend hours every day oiling ourselves and drinking the most expensive teas. Rather, from my perspective, self-care concerns in what sense we act: Am I doing this for myself or for others? Am I going somewhere because I want to or because it is (supposedly) required of me?

Self-care also means serving our own needs first and then lovingly caring for others. It's the principle of the oxygen mask in an airplane: put on your own first so that you can then help others. You'll learn why this has nothing to do with selfishness below in the 3 myths about self-love.

 

Affirmation:

I like to take care of myself to come into my full power.

Self-esteem

I trust myself and value myself.

If you criticize yourself all the time, you lose confidence in yourself. If you know you're okay, you don't have to prove or distinguish yourself to others. Self-esteem is the measure of how much we value and respect ourselves. The amount of value you ascribe to yourself. You can best measure the stability of your self-esteem when someone else criticizes you or when you don't succeed as planned. How do you handle it? Practice communicating lovingly and respectfully with yourself.

 

Affirmation:

I know my worth and respect myself.

Why is it so hard for us to love ourselves?

 

Our brains have been trained to look for danger since the history of mankind. That is why it is still the case today that we often notice the negative first. It was a great danger for man to be excluded from the community. So man has begun to pay close attention to his faults and to what the community does not like.

Now today, we still want to be loved and liked by everyone. Even by the people who go beyond our "community". This need is deeply ingrained in our subconscious.

But we may begin to learn that our survival is no longer dependent on whether all people always love us. We can allow ourselves not to be encouraged and confirmed sometimes. That it is okay to have a different opinion or, for example, to adopt a different lifestyle.

So, in the present age, we may begin to unfold our true selves, feel our emotions, and fully accept ourselves with all our needs and desires.

What does yoga say about self-love? How you can learn true self-love with the Yoga Sutra and the 5 Kleshas, you will learn here: With yoga to more self-love

Small personal anecdote:

I moved into my camper at the beginning of May 2021 and have dissolved everything else to work and live location-independent and close to nature. This way of life meets with incomprehension and resentment every now and then. Since I am not dependent on being loved and encouraged by everyone, I can continue to follow my path. In the certainty that my value is not diminished by the rejection of others.

How to start integrating self-love into your everyday life

 

Everything begins within you...

...and in your calendar.

Self-love begins with setting aside time for yourself to reflect and do things that nourish you soulfully.

 

We rarely postpone doctor's appointments, a walk with the dog, a long-agreed meeting, brushing our teeth or going shopping. Things we do because they have to be done - even if we don't feel like it at the moment, are too tired, too listless, too exhausted. We do them anyway.

How about having a date with yourself on the calendar that you learn to look at in the same way as those everyday to-dos that we attach so much meaning and importance to?

 

How about nothing could shake this appointment with you?

I recommend you to start small: What is NOW, right in this moment, the smallest possible step you could take to arrive more at yourself? Maybe close your eyes for a moment and breathe in and out calmly three times? Maybe put the cell phone away. Maybe brew yourself a fresh cup of tea. This is where self-love begins, with the little breaks and pauses - to briefly look at "how am I doing right now?".  

If you want to go a little further and allow yourself some time off to recharge your batteries and get back to yourself, I recommend you do the following:

Self-love tips for your everyday life

 

Tip 1:

Put fixed appointments in your calendar. This can be 1 hour a month, a Saturday or 10 minutes every morning - make it realistic and adapted to your routines.

Tip 2:

Let your family/roommates know that this time is sacred to you. And ask them to support you in making this time possible.

Tip 3:

Look forward to this date. Buy beautiful flowers or light a candle. Make a concrete plan: e.g. a longer walk in the park. Yoga class, a Meditation exercise, Chant mantras, or dancing for half an hour (I am currently practicing this and it helps me a lot to connect with my body).

3 myths about self love

Maybe negative associations with self-love are holding you back from taking better care of yourself? For example, these myths (which are not true, of course): 

1. "Self-love is selfish".

It is not. 🙂 It would be selfish to rush through life every day and tend to be exhausted, stressed or annoyed. Because you transfer this energy, without wanting to, to your fellow men, be it your family, colleagues or the cashier in the supermarket. 

However, if you allow yourself restorative phases, such as practicing yoga, quietly making a cup of tea or coffee and taking a mini-break, attending a workshop, taking a walk, or quietly reading a book, you can face those around you with more love, centeredness, and contentment.

We are also more focused and therefore more attentive when we relax as well: We can listen more closely and respond to the needs of our loved ones.

2. "Self-love is not productive".

We often believe that every action must have a goal. In my yoga classes I often say "practiced without achievement, without goal".

I maintain that there is value in learning that everything should always be productive and that it is a gift to do something for the sake of the process. 

3. "I need a lot of time for self-love".

You are very welcome to take a lot of time for your self-love.

But if you're short on time right now, use the tips above to find your little downtime amidst the hustle and bustle of everyday life.

More affirmations for self love

Last but not least, I would like to share with you my favorite affirmations that you can use as an intention for your Yoga practice or hang it on your mirror:

ॐ  I allow myself not to have to achieve anything. (Because you are allowed to simply be).

ॐ  I am allowed to relax.

ॐ  I don't have to do anything. I don't have to go anywhere. Life comes to me.

ॐ  With breathing in yoga: Inhale: "I am." Exhale: "Wonderful."

ॐ  I accept myself. I accept my most beautiful qualities and also those that are more difficult for me to accept. I accept my body and its sensitivities. I accept where I am today in my life. I also accept my past in order to learn to love myself unconditionally.

I wish you from my heart that you find this beautiful connection to yourself, expand and learn to love. I wish all the time a deep friendship with yourself.  

From my heart to yours, 

Jessy

Discover Yoga retreat offers based on self love

 

If you are interested in the topic of self-love, here you have beautiful opportunities to go on the journey:

Mantra Singen – Befreiung des Herzens

Mantra Chanting - Liberation of the Heart

Mantra chanting

~How to get more out of yourself with mantra chanting

and be yourself

About the effect of mantras and my own liberation

In this article you can expect:

  1. My own liberation
  2. The effect of mantras
  3. Mantra Chanting: A Beautiful Path to You
  4. Bhakti Yoga: The path of devotion
  5. My favorite mantras

It was only when I discovered mantra chanting that I became truly free. What made me unfree were old beliefs that held me back from coming out of myself, speaking my own truth and living it.

When I participated in a sweat lodge in Peru in 2018 (which was part of my yoga teacher training), I experienced for the first time what mantra chanting, Man = mind and Tra = transcend, can do. Through chanting out loud, I began to dissolve old beliefs and finally live my true nature. It completely changed my outer world and I began to follow my heart.

My own liberation

 

Our sweat lodge was really not fancy stuff: it was a construct made of branches - similar to an igloo in shape. The mesh of branches was enclosed with thick blankets. Inside it is dark and you sit in a circle on the floor around a hole in the ground. In 4 rounds, 7 glowing hot volcanic stones are shoveled into the hole in the ground, so it gets hotter with each round. The sweat lodge, also called temazcal, is primarily for physical, mental and emotional cleansing and healing. I just found it exciting and participated mainly out of curiosity.

Our familiar circle of people, with whom I had had deeply transformative experiences over the previous two weeks, melted round and round into a magical mass of rhythm. We rattled wildly, drumming loudly and chanting Spanish mantras to it. Breathed deeply in and out through the dense heat. 

If there is a physical sensation for spiritual liberation, that's what it was for me. New melodies and new, beautiful Spanish words impacted my soul. The songs described Mother Earth, how we belong to her and are all connected. We chanted about love. Sometimes I didn't even understand the lyrics, but I just let myself be carried away and sang with all my heart.

I felt something inside me wanting to get out.

And at some point I felt tears cooling my cheeks. How my heart pounded loudly. I felt something wanting to get out through the tears in my eyes. And I let it run free. I howled loudly, sobbing and gasping for air. My loud whooping was lost in the singing and drum roll of the others. But I didn't worry about that at that moment. I just let it happen and felt a sense of liberation in me.

 

"I felt a sense of liberation inside me."

The effect of mantras

 

Today, when tears come to my eyes, I remember that this is a mouthpiece of my deep self and that I want to hear it. We all have wounds. And we can speak of happiness when these move from the inside out to experience healing.

A mantra calls to your essence.Through chanting, beliefs, emotions and deep needs of the soul can become visible.

Chanting a repetitive syllable or phrase, that is, a mantra, works on three levels:

Physical

 

Chanting is also pranayama. It is deep breathing. Again and again. The body is brought into a harmonious vibration, which can have a positive effect on the organs, the nervous system and the psyche.

Emotional

 

When we chant mantras, we feel joy, we experience an immediate lightness. You can't chant and be deeply sad. Chanting mantras can extend to the feeling that your heart almost seems to burst with joy.

Energetic

 

Since chanting has an uplifting effect on our emotions (e.g. from sadness to joy or from anger to equanimity) this increases our energy field. You may feel a throbbing in the heart space (anahata chakra) or a tingling in the throat (vishudda chakra).

Mantra Chanting: A Beautiful Path to You

 

Through this raising of your emotional and energetic state, through the stimulation of the (mostly) upper four chakras, we feel freer. The fact that today I dare to sing in front of many people has not only to do with the dissolution of an old belief ("I am not musical"), but rather with a trust in myself, in my essence.

Singing means being loud. Not mincing words (anymore). Willpower. Saying yes. Saying no. Speaking your truth and not that of others. Dissent. Encouragement. Being tender. Being powerful. Mantra chanting is all of that.

Singing invitingly offers us the opportunity to come out of ourselves. To be loud. We women have been drilled over many generations to be well-behaved and quiet, to behave and not stand out. Stand out if you want to. Be loud and wild if you want to. Of course, this also applies to all men.

Maybe you will find in mantra chanting this one way that helps you to come out of yourself more, to dare to do something. To be loud. To be you. To go your way. And that full of love and devotion.

I wish you from the bottom of my heart that you find YOUR heart's path. In whatever form that may be.

 

Your Jessy

Bhakti Yoga: The path of devotion

 

Within the 4 paths of yoga (Jnana Yoga, Karma Yoga, Raja Yoga and Bhakti Yoga) mantra chanting is part of the path of devotion and love, Bhakti Yoga. This includes chanting, dancing, praying, rituals and ceremonies, music, creativity - everything that makes your heart blossom and with which you can express yourself. It's about surrendering to your emotions, giving yourself free rein in movement or chanting.

It is considered the easiest way to self-liberation because we simply surrender to the higher power: Letting ourselves be moved or letting the chanting flow through us. The goal of bhakti is pure love and appeals to our emotional qualities. That's why tears of joy, of healing, of love flow now and then at bhakti events.

A small selection of my favorite mantras:

Probably the most famous mantra: OM ॐ

The yogis say that the Indian Sanskrit mantras in particular are connected to an energy field (morphogenetic field) that has been built up for thousands of years by all the people who have ever repeated the mantra. By chanting the mantra OM, you become connected to this field and to these gurus, masters and all the people who have ever chanted it. Think of this abundance the next time you chant AUM.

RA MA DA SA

Ra = solar energy

Ma = Moon energy

Da = Earth energy

Sa = Energy of the universe

Say = You / personal energy

So = I am

Hum = The Divine/Higher Power

OM GAM GANAPATHAYE NAMAH

This mantra honors the Indian deity Ganesha. Ganesha represents wisdom and knowledge and overcoming our obstacles. Ganesha is therefore often called first to open ceremonies. A mantra that is wonderful before yoga practice and also ideal for a mantra meditation with a mala.

Gam = sound (seed sound) of Ganesha

Ganapathaye = Ganesha himself

Namaha = in his name or honoring him

NAMASTASYAY

Namastasyay, Namastasyay, Namastasyay, Namo Namaha

I also like to sing in my own Spanish version to thank Mother Earth:

Pacha Mama, Pacha Mama, Pacha Mama, Te amo, Te amo (Mother Earth, I love you)

All of my retreats & events include a mantra component.

Feel free to drop by:

Instagram @jessy_inti_yoga: Here I share mantra videos with you every now and then

MUST SEE: A beautiful, deeply moving film about the power of mantras: mantramovie.com/

Krishna Das | inspiring mantra singer, harmonium player, kirtan leader: krishnadas.com/

Deva Premal & Miten | For me a great inspiration: www.devapremalmiten.com

Tränen der Befreiung in Peru

Tears of liberation in Peru

Tears of liberation in Peru

~ Truly letting go in the sweat lodge.

In Peru, everything is magical anyway. All the time. Every faraway view, every breeze on your face, every ray of sun on your skin feels mystical and imbued with a deeper meaning. This is a very personal story about Peru's special magic.

"It was only when I discovered mantra chanting that I really became free". I write on my website. This is the place where this discovery took place: Peru, 2018, Yoga Teacher Training ~ I had no idea how much these three weeks would change my life. An endlessly interesting and forever lasting journey began:

The Way to Me

Simply incredible:

Munay Sonqo ~ Yoga Retreat Center

For two weeks I lived here in this very house at the top of the picture. With the holy "Apus", the high mountains in the background. Surrounded by the most beautiful garden I have ever seen until today. A true place of healing. And one evening there was a sweat lodge ritual that I participated in out of curiosity....

Half past five in the evening in Peru

 

On the evening of the sweat lodge, we all initially sat there excitedly, covered only with our small towels. Shame spread a little in front of the hut built from branches and alpaca blankets. The rustic sweat lodge construction looked like an igloo, except that it got very hot inside instead of icy. The threshold to the small entrance, which consisted of a thick cloth hanging down, was entered with a prayer.

One last, trusting look at Taki, who was to lead this ritual, before I entered. He is a rather short man by German standards, but average height in Peru. He has darker skin and black hair with a few dreadlocks. His look is warm and soft. At the same time he radiates something rugged, close to nature, wild, something organic. I've never seen him with shoes on. Or with a cell phone. Although he was probably just a few years older than me. I guessed him to be in his mid/late thirties, a young guy, then, who lived below the retreat grounds and barely mingled with the "crowd," which consisted mostly of pretty American and European yogi girls. There was something sensual about him and he radiated a special calm. Somehow he saw right through you and in a strange way this led to a deep familiarity.

Here we go

 

I knelt down in front of the alpaca curtain and thought about the fact that my towel was much too short. It was early evening and already dusky, but still quite bright. I bowed to Mother Nature anyway, "after all, she had created me just so naked, even if half of me is peeking out now," I thought to myself. I said a short prayer of thanksgiving, bringing my hands to my forehead in a prayer position. Then I brought my forehead to the earthy ground and placed both palms next to my temples with my fingers spread. It was as if I wanted to absorb as much of Pacha Mama (Mother Earth) as possible with my fingers.

Finally, I entered the dark circle with the hole in the ground in the middle. One by one we went through this ritual of entering, one after the other, without haste. Clockwise, we sat down on the small ring built of earth along the edge.

Hot - hotter - healing

 

Then we celebrated the "hombre del fuego" (the man of fire), who already had a huge fire going about 2 meters from the entrance and was sweating a lot before it really started. We cheered him with drum beats and rattles. He gratefully accepted our praise and yet I had the feeling that he was a bit uncomfortable being the center of attention. He was an important part of the ceremony: preheating the 24 Peruvian volcanic stones, the "abuelitas" (grandmothers), in his giant fire for us. There were four rounds, each with 6 abuelitas shoveled into the center of our hut. One round lasted about 30-40 minutes.

I had great respect for the heat that awaited me. Concerns about whether my circulation would hold out. And at the same time there was this irrepressible curiosity and excitement. After all, I didn't know exactly what was about to happen.

Taki, who led the ceremony with incredible dedication, was the last to enter. We greeted each of the first 6 abuelitas with "Bienvenida abueliata", Welcome Grandmother. As we did so, Taki gradually began to play rhythms on his drum. When the first stones had fully arrived and the temperature had already risen noticeably, the hombre del fuego closed the entrance with the thick alpaca blankets. It was pitch dark and only a glow of the lava stones was visible.

WHEN THERE IS A PHYSICAL SENSATION

FOR SPIRITUAL LIBERATION EXISTS,

THEN FOR ME IT WAS JUST THAT

The sound of the soul

 

Around Taki's drumbeat, his voice gradually nestled. His girlfriend and Jimena, who was something like the spiritual director of the retreat facility, knew the Spanish mantras and joined in with their angelic voices. Quickly we were able to follow as well. Our sacred circle, that protected, familiar space of people with whom I'd been traveling deeper than ever before over the past two weeks, melted into a magical mass of rhythm. We rattled and sang. Breathed deeply in and out, through the heat.

Round 2

 

The breeze did infinitely good when the hombre del fuego briefly lifted the blankets in front of the entrance hole to hold out the shovel with the next abuelita to us and gently place it with the others in our midst. Six times we called again "bienvenida abuelita".

And again, new melodies and new, beautiful Spanish words impacted my soul. The songs described Mother Earth, how we belong to her, are all connected. How she nourishes us. It was about the elements, fire, water, earth, air. About the ether. About the heart. We sang about love. Sometimes I didn't really understand the lyrics, I just let myself be carried away.

As of now, I can only give a hazy account of what exactly happened. It is important for me to mention that no drugs were part of this ceremony. All that put me into a kind of trance was the heat, the music and my breathing.

Our singing as a group got louder and louder. We stuck to a tune that felt good. Taki called out a word to the group. I don't remember what. Something like compassion or connectedness. By now we were all moving our sweaty bodies in a sitting position as much as space allowed.

We were about 15 people in a circular hut with a diameter of maybe 3 meters. By now I didn't care about the sweat of the others and my own. I continued to hum and sing to the drumbeats. Someone else from our circle now suddenly also shouted a word in the middle and a song arose from Taki's melody and courage-giving, liberating words, which were shouted out with body and soul. And at some point this song, which formed as if by itself, reached a kind of climax where all the drums gradually got louder, all the voices sang louder and it got really hot.

Liberation

 

Suddenly I felt tears cooling my cheeks. How my heart pounded loudly

 

How something inside me wanted to scream. I felt a feeling wanting to come out through the tears in my eyes. And I gave it free rein. I howled loudly, sobbing and gasping for air. I don't know for how long, but it was for as long as it took. My loud whooping was completely lost in the singing voices and music of the others. But I didn't worry about that at that moment. I just let it happen. I let go of everything. Even my towel. I can't remember when or if I've ever consciously cried so hard. And there wasn't just release. There was also something dark, something very painful. There was a shadow that I let surface from the inside.

To my surprise, the heat remained bearable even in the third round. I still had enough breath to continue singing and moving. I noticed how my voice now drowned out the desperate shouting, loud laughter or quiet crying of some others. And I just thought to myself "Yes, let it all out, don't be ashamed". By now no one had their towel on either. And when we moved to the music our wet bodies touched each other. So what. We hung on to each other, sometimes took each other's hand or changed our sitting position. We all just sat there as Pacha Mama had made us: free, connected, naked, with open hearts and deeply touched. Even in the fourth round.

The music gently died away. And the hombre del fuego lifted the cloth in front of the entrance. A wonderfully cool breeze on it into the interior. Clockwise again, one by one, we slowly left the hut.

With a bucket we poured cold Andean water from the stream that ran right next to the sweat lodge over our heads. We stood under the shining, crystal clear starry sky in the middle of Peru. Now everything was definitely washed away that no longer served me. At least everything that dared to surface that evening. I felt great. Liberated. Relieved. Filled with joy.

I found my voice that night. I was really loud and it didn't matter how it sounded. The mantra chanting, the shouting of the words, the drums - it had an infinitely liberating effect on me.

Today I believe that on that evening I inwardly decided to speak my truth from now on and to live according to it. What concretely meant that a few weeks later I quit my job, adopted a street dog, now - 2 years later - play the harmonium as a yoga teacher and dare to sing in front of people.

That I found the way to bhakti-yoga through chanting and am now walking the path of the heart.

 

And when tears come to me today, I try to remember that they are a precious mouthpiece of my deepest inner self and I want to hear them. We all have wounds. And we can be grateful when they move from the inside out to experience healing. Even if it's scary at first. Letting go of something, getting free of a thought, belief, and what we no longer are or need is something this experience has taught me.

~ May all living creatures everywhere be happy and free.

Your Jessica

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